recently heard that a long time friend of mine parted ways with another friend of mine. Although we are all so mature and close to an age band where such things would be quite unimaginable, it actually happened. The only possible consolation - they aren't married nor they had any shared assets.
i won't know the reason behind, but definitely there must be some great underlying motivation and courage to sever a bond that was in place for years.
i can only hope it was not any temptation involved. I always feel that at the end of the day, differentiate between someone who really loves the other and a 3rd party who temporarily distracted a relationship.
5-10 years ago, we can get together easily, sit down and discuss. That was what i did and many of my friends really gave good advice. But now at our age, it seemed really awkward to talk about it, since each of us would appreciate some privacy and decisions especially in matters of the heart.
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Thursday, March 31, 2011
Friday, February 11, 2011
class 95 morning express
sometimes it's good to wake up early and join the rush hour drive to whichever customer in my schedule. Otherwise i wouldn't turn on the radio.
what FD and Glenn said seemed funny but were somewhat true and more importantly, made sense. These are roughly what they said, but not exactly word-by-word
"girls always think they can change their men. Then 5 years down the road, they realise they couldn't get married with that guy because it finally seemed impossible."
"sometimes the man actually changes, the girl regretted it."
i think the best is not to harbour expectations. But some of us are little perfectionists and tend to micro-manage things. I hope myself and friends around me would not turn a relationship into a doctor-patient problem. If there's things to remedy all the time, something is extremely wrong.
what FD and Glenn said seemed funny but were somewhat true and more importantly, made sense. These are roughly what they said, but not exactly word-by-word
"girls always think they can change their men. Then 5 years down the road, they realise they couldn't get married with that guy because it finally seemed impossible."
"sometimes the man actually changes, the girl regretted it."
i think the best is not to harbour expectations. But some of us are little perfectionists and tend to micro-manage things. I hope myself and friends around me would not turn a relationship into a doctor-patient problem. If there's things to remedy all the time, something is extremely wrong.
Thursday, November 12, 2009
getting over a failed relationship...
each of us has a different mechanism in handling matters of the heart. One can be normal during the onset thinking nothing has really happened, then found out things were more painful than expected. Another can be normal too, but is internally bitter and angry for a long time. Saying hello to each other seems normal, but there is much anguish underneath. Slowly, the promise of being good friends faded. It is just not possible then.
what i observed of recent made me recall these emotions again. For a period when i became alone, i was determined to set the so-called bad points straight, to prove to the other one. Needless to say, these actions became redundant and rather immature on realising it. For example, i spent much money going overseas, back to a place we went together. The trip was still fruitful, because it somewhat made me wake up. Basically, money made the world spin again. But, i am who i am. Some things just cannot be changed.
we all do silly things. But we cannot go on and do them forever.
what i observed of recent made me recall these emotions again. For a period when i became alone, i was determined to set the so-called bad points straight, to prove to the other one. Needless to say, these actions became redundant and rather immature on realising it. For example, i spent much money going overseas, back to a place we went together. The trip was still fruitful, because it somewhat made me wake up. Basically, money made the world spin again. But, i am who i am. Some things just cannot be changed.
we all do silly things. But we cannot go on and do them forever.
Saturday, October 11, 2008
mature content, so to speak
before i idle my blog again, let me post up something i read from a pretty girl's blog. Credits to the poster.
it spoke volumes about a relationship, how things can change people drastically in an endless pursuit of money, career, etc.
for a moment, i was rudely reminded when i read about he asking his wife, in a joking way, about divorce. It was something obviously familiar in context, and some other parts drew parallels to my experience. It's a reminder.
note: the sentences have been realigned and punctuated appropriately.
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"On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.
This was the scene of ten years ago.
The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid, I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affections between us seemed to ebb.
She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school. Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.
Dew came into my life.
It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love.
This was the apartment I bought for her.
Dew said, You are the kind of man who best draws girls eyeballs.
Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we just married, my wife said, men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls. Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn't help doing so.
I moved Dew's hand aside and said, You go to select some furniture, O.K.? I've got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised her to go and see with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.
However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt.
Honestly,she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew’s body. This was the means of my entertainment.
One day I said to her in a slight joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.
When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking with her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes. Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.
When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I've got something to tell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want to divorce.
I raised a serious topic calmly.
She didn't seem to be much annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? . I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer turned her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!
At that night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day.
But I could not take back what I had said.
Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.
A late night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fell asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.
She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month's time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken.
She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day? This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember . You carried me in your arms, she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.
I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage with a romantic form.
I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.
My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger.
So when I carried her out for the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don't tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for bus, I drove to office.
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for along time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.
On the third day, she whispered to me, The outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.
On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vaguer.
On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as,where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger.
I didn't tell Dew about this.
I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now.
She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, All my dresses have grown fatter. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain.
Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.
Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out. He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom,through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.
On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old.
I held her tightly and said, Both you and I didn't notice that our life was lacking of such intimacy.
I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won t divorce. I'm serious.
She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you.
Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into cry. I walked downstairs and drove to the office. When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me to write the greeting words on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until we are old."
it spoke volumes about a relationship, how things can change people drastically in an endless pursuit of money, career, etc.
for a moment, i was rudely reminded when i read about he asking his wife, in a joking way, about divorce. It was something obviously familiar in context, and some other parts drew parallels to my experience. It's a reminder.
note: the sentences have been realigned and punctuated appropriately.
------------------------------------------------------------
"On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.
This was the scene of ten years ago.
The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid, I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affections between us seemed to ebb.
She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school. Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.
Dew came into my life.
It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love.
This was the apartment I bought for her.
Dew said, You are the kind of man who best draws girls eyeballs.
Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we just married, my wife said, men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls. Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn't help doing so.
I moved Dew's hand aside and said, You go to select some furniture, O.K.? I've got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised her to go and see with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.
However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt.
Honestly,she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew’s body. This was the means of my entertainment.
One day I said to her in a slight joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.
When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking with her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes. Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.
When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I've got something to tell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want to divorce.
I raised a serious topic calmly.
She didn't seem to be much annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? . I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer turned her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!
At that night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day.
But I could not take back what I had said.
Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.
A late night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fell asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.
She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month's time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken.
She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day? This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember . You carried me in your arms, she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.
I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage with a romantic form.
I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.
My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger.
So when I carried her out for the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don't tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for bus, I drove to office.
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for along time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.
On the third day, she whispered to me, The outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.
On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vaguer.
On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as,where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger.
I didn't tell Dew about this.
I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now.
She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, All my dresses have grown fatter. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain.
Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.
Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out. He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom,through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.
On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old.
I held her tightly and said, Both you and I didn't notice that our life was lacking of such intimacy.
I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won t divorce. I'm serious.
She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you.
Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into cry. I walked downstairs and drove to the office. When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me to write the greeting words on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until we are old."
Monday, August 18, 2008
The high price of saying 'I do' (Straits Times)
Do you really need a big wedding when you've already found true love?
By Fiona Chan
'LOVE don't cost a thing,' Jennifer Lopez once famously sang - but she neglected to mention that weddings are quite another matter.
Over the past few years, I have marvelled at how my peers managed everything from custom-made animated videos to sunset yacht parties for their unions, while still qualifying only for an HDB flat on a combined income of $8,000 a month.
My own wedding next year will be fuss-free: just the traditional hotel dinner and a simple solemnisation on one day. Even so, it will probably cost my entire year's salary.
That cost is, in fact, delaying some of my friends' walk down that aisle; they say they have not saved enough for their big day.
It is a practical consideration given today's inflation. Even a small wedding can be costly, and every time a bride-to-be hears wedding bells, there is also the background ka-ching sound from the bridal industry's cash registers.
According to my extensive - but unscientific - research, the average cost of a weekend hotel banquet will go up 5 per cent to 10 per cent between this year and next, crossing the $1,000 per table mark just in time for my dinner.
That does not include wine, now a wedding staple, which will set you back another $1,000 or so. Another $3,000 will go to photographers and videographers to document the special day.
Then there is the dress.
Even at one-stop heartland shops, bridal gown packages now cost upwards of $2,500. I have not even dared to ask about the designer creations I drool over in magazines.
Wedding rings - just those little bands - do not come under $1,200 a pair. My fiance and I have taken to walking into jewellery shops and demanding to see their cheapest choices.
And we didn't get very good service, let me tell you.
So I tell myself not to get carried away - who says you have to have it all?
Although 'mandatory' banquets may be blamed on parents, it is the couples themselves who order personalised videos, devise themes and plan three entrances with accompanying dramatic outfits.
Problem is, most of their friends are also new to the workforce, which means their well-meant dinner hongbao probably cover just the appetisers.
Couples swallow the exorbitant mark-ups on purchases for their wedding, telling themselves it is a once-in- a-lifetime event worth every cent to celebrate their love.
One friend even toyed with the idea of having her bridal photos shot overseas for an extra-special touch. The cost: $15,000.
My question is: If you have true love, do you really need the big wedding?
After all, you could get married for as little as $26 - the fee that the Registry of Marriages charges for a marriage licence.
That does not seem enough for young starry-eyed couples just starting their careers, who seem to want the splashiest weddings.
But I know of a couple in their late 30s who did away with the pomp and had a simple church service and dinner, happy enough to have found love when they least expected it.
Lopez's wedding, to singer Marc Anthony in 2004, was a low-key affair which cost US$50,000 (about S$70,400 in today's rates). The couple, both acquainted with failed marriages, spent a relatively modest amount on their celebrity wedding, compared to say, Liza Minelli, whose 2002 nuptials topped Forbes.com's most expensive wedding list at an estimated US$3.5million.
Me, I am lucky enough to have a partner who constantly reminds me that it is the marriage, not just the wedding, which really matters.
Lopez is still married. Minelli is not. With the right person, love won't cost you much at all.
do you think this is oh-so-true? I ever dreamed of i doing away the dinner and taking a super long holiday round the world. Will that be possible?
By Fiona Chan
'LOVE don't cost a thing,' Jennifer Lopez once famously sang - but she neglected to mention that weddings are quite another matter.
Over the past few years, I have marvelled at how my peers managed everything from custom-made animated videos to sunset yacht parties for their unions, while still qualifying only for an HDB flat on a combined income of $8,000 a month.
My own wedding next year will be fuss-free: just the traditional hotel dinner and a simple solemnisation on one day. Even so, it will probably cost my entire year's salary.
That cost is, in fact, delaying some of my friends' walk down that aisle; they say they have not saved enough for their big day.
It is a practical consideration given today's inflation. Even a small wedding can be costly, and every time a bride-to-be hears wedding bells, there is also the background ka-ching sound from the bridal industry's cash registers.
According to my extensive - but unscientific - research, the average cost of a weekend hotel banquet will go up 5 per cent to 10 per cent between this year and next, crossing the $1,000 per table mark just in time for my dinner.
That does not include wine, now a wedding staple, which will set you back another $1,000 or so. Another $3,000 will go to photographers and videographers to document the special day.
Then there is the dress.
Even at one-stop heartland shops, bridal gown packages now cost upwards of $2,500. I have not even dared to ask about the designer creations I drool over in magazines.
Wedding rings - just those little bands - do not come under $1,200 a pair. My fiance and I have taken to walking into jewellery shops and demanding to see their cheapest choices.
And we didn't get very good service, let me tell you.
So I tell myself not to get carried away - who says you have to have it all?
Although 'mandatory' banquets may be blamed on parents, it is the couples themselves who order personalised videos, devise themes and plan three entrances with accompanying dramatic outfits.
Problem is, most of their friends are also new to the workforce, which means their well-meant dinner hongbao probably cover just the appetisers.
Couples swallow the exorbitant mark-ups on purchases for their wedding, telling themselves it is a once-in- a-lifetime event worth every cent to celebrate their love.
One friend even toyed with the idea of having her bridal photos shot overseas for an extra-special touch. The cost: $15,000.
My question is: If you have true love, do you really need the big wedding?
After all, you could get married for as little as $26 - the fee that the Registry of Marriages charges for a marriage licence.
That does not seem enough for young starry-eyed couples just starting their careers, who seem to want the splashiest weddings.
But I know of a couple in their late 30s who did away with the pomp and had a simple church service and dinner, happy enough to have found love when they least expected it.
Lopez's wedding, to singer Marc Anthony in 2004, was a low-key affair which cost US$50,000 (about S$70,400 in today's rates). The couple, both acquainted with failed marriages, spent a relatively modest amount on their celebrity wedding, compared to say, Liza Minelli, whose 2002 nuptials topped Forbes.com's most expensive wedding list at an estimated US$3.5million.
Me, I am lucky enough to have a partner who constantly reminds me that it is the marriage, not just the wedding, which really matters.
Lopez is still married. Minelli is not. With the right person, love won't cost you much at all.
do you think this is oh-so-true? I ever dreamed of i doing away the dinner and taking a super long holiday round the world. Will that be possible?
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
unconditional love
private blog entry. Interested readers, please get the password from me.
visiting Flyer later. Looking forward to it...
visiting Flyer later. Looking forward to it...
Monday, March 17, 2008
misc
some random post about my life.
fish tank
last week, something happened to my fish tank again. The electronic solenoid that controlled the output of carbon dioxide broke. It still could turn itself on and off via the digital timer, but the output continued to release the gas into my reactor when the timer shuts off. Hate to dismantle the whole setup and bring it down to Balestier. sheesh.
then the air pump got weakened so much that my tank's water surface got too calm and now, too choked with carbon dioxide. Wonder what my fishes are thinking in the current condition. This is no good....
a forgotten promise... an unexpected incident
then met up with yx, to deliver the PC i promised to do since ages ago. I really mean ages ago. Then i heard that she threw her temper at him because of something i said. I don't know why, but this (still) mattered to me greatly and sadly, i'm disappointed. I don't wish to bother myself with this anymore, and i doubt you will take note of it anyway.
selamat datang
MKS is affecting my household now. My bro just came back from brunei and 2 days off burnt. Why? Deployment to search for him. In the name of National Service.
tests and more tests (surveys and more surveys)
the past week was concentrated on 2 tests - 1 from school, the other from school too. Driving school.
did 2 surveys in biz school, as a requirement for my MNO module. It's fun, but i don't really get the meaning behind. In one of the tests, i had to put my palm under the table while i do the survey. Strange?
dollars and cents
met up with Hadassah last week regarding my financial review. I'm pretty fine in the protection with a few policies, and she knows it too. She proposed two more plans to increase my savings and invest in unit trusts. But that will require quite a bit of my savings, which i'm not really keen too. But i understand her intentions - if i don't start now, it's hard to do it later. And the money will be useful in future.
but i have a new intention - to finance a really big purchase in 2009. Maybe i'll go ahead with the investment, but postpone the savings plan for now.
driving
back to the theory test. Now that the basic is over, i'm ready for advance. In the poly days, i've postponed everything, including the theory tests because i really can't afford them. But i told myself this: when i finally start learning, i wouldn't want to stop at that piece of "Singapore Driving Licence" plastic. Good friends will know my intention =)
i told my bro, from now this "dream" at the back of my head will be shifted into higher gear. He smiled. I shall hope for the best. Haha...
trivia
when i replied a girl called jewelry at the printer room, her face was flushed! Can see the change! Omg... lol... hope she's not reading my blog.
fish tank
last week, something happened to my fish tank again. The electronic solenoid that controlled the output of carbon dioxide broke. It still could turn itself on and off via the digital timer, but the output continued to release the gas into my reactor when the timer shuts off. Hate to dismantle the whole setup and bring it down to Balestier. sheesh.
then the air pump got weakened so much that my tank's water surface got too calm and now, too choked with carbon dioxide. Wonder what my fishes are thinking in the current condition. This is no good....
a forgotten promise... an unexpected incident
then met up with yx, to deliver the PC i promised to do since ages ago. I really mean ages ago. Then i heard that she threw her temper at him because of something i said. I don't know why, but this (still) mattered to me greatly and sadly, i'm disappointed. I don't wish to bother myself with this anymore, and i doubt you will take note of it anyway.
selamat datang
MKS is affecting my household now. My bro just came back from brunei and 2 days off burnt. Why? Deployment to search for him. In the name of National Service.
tests and more tests (surveys and more surveys)
the past week was concentrated on 2 tests - 1 from school, the other from school too. Driving school.
did 2 surveys in biz school, as a requirement for my MNO module. It's fun, but i don't really get the meaning behind. In one of the tests, i had to put my palm under the table while i do the survey. Strange?
dollars and cents
met up with Hadassah last week regarding my financial review. I'm pretty fine in the protection with a few policies, and she knows it too. She proposed two more plans to increase my savings and invest in unit trusts. But that will require quite a bit of my savings, which i'm not really keen too. But i understand her intentions - if i don't start now, it's hard to do it later. And the money will be useful in future.
but i have a new intention - to finance a really big purchase in 2009. Maybe i'll go ahead with the investment, but postpone the savings plan for now.
driving
back to the theory test. Now that the basic is over, i'm ready for advance. In the poly days, i've postponed everything, including the theory tests because i really can't afford them. But i told myself this: when i finally start learning, i wouldn't want to stop at that piece of "Singapore Driving Licence" plastic. Good friends will know my intention =)
i told my bro, from now this "dream" at the back of my head will be shifted into higher gear. He smiled. I shall hope for the best. Haha...
trivia
when i replied a girl called jewelry at the printer room, her face was flushed! Can see the change! Omg... lol... hope she's not reading my blog.
Tuesday, December 4, 2007
lunch was a disaster
the attempt to talk to her and tell her my worries screwed up, and her answer was the more worse. I was eating halfway. Just stared at my lunch lifelessly and told myself to finish it.
in a fit of silent anger i bought a pint of Heineken. Hopefully with it, i can convince my inner self, to forget it.
- even if we tell her all true stories abt all these stuff she won't listen... until she experience it herself
- it's no use if u keep forcing it... you'll just hurt urself...
Fish Leong - 崇拜 - this song is special.
in a fit of silent anger i bought a pint of Heineken. Hopefully with it, i can convince my inner self, to forget it.
- even if we tell her all true stories abt all these stuff she won't listen... until she experience it herself
- it's no use if u keep forcing it... you'll just hurt urself...
Fish Leong - 崇拜 - this song is special.
Friday, November 30, 2007
dailies and some thoughts
the nightmare of night shifts started right after my exams. The last 2 days of the week consist of helpdesk and night shift combos, which is very tiring. Really. Especially today, i broke the combo into 2 sessions so that i can go Sitex in between. I slept anywhere i could; on the bus and train back home.
lunch was with drew and girls. After the meal i took 72 to Tampines, then transferred to Expo via Tanah Merah. It's somewhat fast; 1 hour of journey from YCK.
sitex
the show itself is pretty disappointing. It's more like a LCD TV show since half of hall 5 are Harvey Norman, Audio House, etc. Furthermore 2 speakers were staging bidding wars through their loudspeakers, to gain the consumers' dollar for 32, 37, 42 etc LCD tvs. Compared to buying this, i'd rather bring my parents for a holiday overseas. Yup, indeed my parents tentatively agreed to Hong Kong after CNY next year. If everything goes according to plan, i'll book the tickets for 23-27 Feb 2008. It will be the 3rd HK trip in a year!
back to the show; nothing interested me. I thought iPod touch looks good, however it didn't have any organizing functions. $498 for the 8GB version is rather expensive and useless to me, since i don't watch videos on the move. Next, the Microsoft mouse were selling at the same price compared to Simlim. Why do a promotion at Sitex, when the prices are identical, if not slightly higher? And next, Orange Telecom were pushing SE phones at the show. Once again, the prices are higher than Mobilesquare. I concede not many would know/trust MS, but the prices are simply marked up. Picked up some leaflets and went back for my night shift.
Case for touch. hmm..
funerals and partings
was looking at CNA and STI video reports of the 5 men. The event has ironically captured some people's attention (like me and a few), yet many others seem to treat it as something insignificant.
before saying some harsh words, i'd say sorry, but i don't understand why some human beings can treat it as though nothing happened. It would be very selfish to say "oh this didn't happen to me, why should i care?". It's not about a national loss of sportsmen, but in reality sudden loss of a son, colleague, army mate, friend, etc. Put yourself in their shoes, what if you're the parent, colleague, army mate or friend of the 5? Shrug it off? If yes, then the infamous line applies: what comes around goes around.
other thoughts
i'm again disappointed with someone. Although i'm concerned about the situation, there's no feedback about it. Maybe aloofness is the word. What i heard after the meal just sunk the disappointment further.
she has been trying hard, perhaps to overrun stronger mates. But that's not the crux nor the critical factor to winning. What's the point of winning? One can help, the other can advise, someone else can help put words across. But when the attitude and mindset isn't correct, things will never change for the better. The onus is on herself to make the change in time management and be assertive & expressive in her working style. If the aim is to move to any of the local universities later, the change must happen. It's never about winning academically, but it's about how to cope with personal stress and manage friendly relations. A loner, want-to-do-all or stubborn mindset will never truly succeed. The GPA is just a number. [edit] Having said all these, i still don't mind sharing her troubles... *foolish me*.
my words are frank and honest. Anyway, she may not read my blog. So i end up talking to air still.
exhausted and wanted to blog about some interesting news, but i lost that feeling to continue. Time to sleep...
Gary got these from Japan. Nice!
Hebe.
lunch was with drew and girls. After the meal i took 72 to Tampines, then transferred to Expo via Tanah Merah. It's somewhat fast; 1 hour of journey from YCK.
sitex
the show itself is pretty disappointing. It's more like a LCD TV show since half of hall 5 are Harvey Norman, Audio House, etc. Furthermore 2 speakers were staging bidding wars through their loudspeakers, to gain the consumers' dollar for 32, 37, 42 etc LCD tvs. Compared to buying this, i'd rather bring my parents for a holiday overseas. Yup, indeed my parents tentatively agreed to Hong Kong after CNY next year. If everything goes according to plan, i'll book the tickets for 23-27 Feb 2008. It will be the 3rd HK trip in a year!
back to the show; nothing interested me. I thought iPod touch looks good, however it didn't have any organizing functions. $498 for the 8GB version is rather expensive and useless to me, since i don't watch videos on the move. Next, the Microsoft mouse were selling at the same price compared to Simlim. Why do a promotion at Sitex, when the prices are identical, if not slightly higher? And next, Orange Telecom were pushing SE phones at the show. Once again, the prices are higher than Mobilesquare. I concede not many would know/trust MS, but the prices are simply marked up. Picked up some leaflets and went back for my night shift.
Case for touch. hmm..funerals and partings
was looking at CNA and STI video reports of the 5 men. The event has ironically captured some people's attention (like me and a few), yet many others seem to treat it as something insignificant.
before saying some harsh words, i'd say sorry, but i don't understand why some human beings can treat it as though nothing happened. It would be very selfish to say "oh this didn't happen to me, why should i care?". It's not about a national loss of sportsmen, but in reality sudden loss of a son, colleague, army mate, friend, etc. Put yourself in their shoes, what if you're the parent, colleague, army mate or friend of the 5? Shrug it off? If yes, then the infamous line applies: what comes around goes around.
other thoughts
i'm again disappointed with someone. Although i'm concerned about the situation, there's no feedback about it. Maybe aloofness is the word. What i heard after the meal just sunk the disappointment further.
she has been trying hard, perhaps to overrun stronger mates. But that's not the crux nor the critical factor to winning. What's the point of winning? One can help, the other can advise, someone else can help put words across. But when the attitude and mindset isn't correct, things will never change for the better. The onus is on herself to make the change in time management and be assertive & expressive in her working style. If the aim is to move to any of the local universities later, the change must happen. It's never about winning academically, but it's about how to cope with personal stress and manage friendly relations. A loner, want-to-do-all or stubborn mindset will never truly succeed. The GPA is just a number. [edit] Having said all these, i still don't mind sharing her troubles... *foolish me*.
my words are frank and honest. Anyway, she may not read my blog. So i end up talking to air still.
exhausted and wanted to blog about some interesting news, but i lost that feeling to continue. Time to sleep...
Gary got these from Japan. Nice!
Hebe.Tuesday, October 30, 2007
梁靜茹 - 今天情人節 2007
Fish Leonglooking for close friends (any girls? =x) who like Fish Leong's songs to watch this concert with me!
she will be holding the concert at the SIS, 29 dec 2007 at 8pm.
anybody? I need to book soon (most likely getting CAT 3 seats, $118/pax).
she will be holding the concert
anybody? I need to book soon (most likely getting CAT 3 seats, $118/pax).
i released much stress after watching this mtv. That few lines in it triggered memories and made me tear. But it was more like tears of relief. Although men should "liu xie bu liu lei", but oh well i concede i'm one of the guys who can never be like that. I'm not made of metal~
i very much want to stand by her, share the troubles but my hands are tied these 2 weeks. *fat* girl plsss help her wherever you can!!
Sunday, October 28, 2007
waters are overly calm
settled all the little outstanding stuff today. Even went back to NYP to settle some paperwork for the coming audit, luckily there is supply of cold air. Where, it remains a secret =x
went over to blk M and Q to note down the configuration of 7 labs, saw some unusual peeps - i knew a girl from dmd, and she was in the fypj lab happily looking into her dual screen Mac G5. With the lights off. I thought i saw a ghost =x
then another guy walked pass me at blk M's level 4 entrance, then we met again at blk Q level 3's entrance. His card obviously couldn't enter ELQ, so he waited nearby for me to tap mine. Actually i was afraid mine won't be recognized since i've not tried accessing on a sunday, but the reader gave the nod. Heng ar...
the strangest thing was that he is a student, looking for labs to use. Fine, but on a sunday? Where on earth did he get the idea that school is open?
then a couple knocked on my door while i was peeling my prawn just now. Didn't inform me.. *bish* at least i can put some air freshener, tidy my table, etc. lolz. I soon discovered their real purpose...
Notice what's on the screen? Patches of green.
2 pairs of eyes on the greens -.-"
went over to blk M and Q to note down the configuration of 7 labs, saw some unusual peeps - i knew a girl from dmd, and she was in the fypj lab happily looking into her dual screen Mac G5. With the lights off. I thought i saw a ghost =x
then another guy walked pass me at blk M's level 4 entrance, then we met again at blk Q level 3's entrance. His card obviously couldn't enter ELQ, so he waited nearby for me to tap mine. Actually i was afraid mine won't be recognized since i've not tried accessing on a sunday, but the reader gave the nod. Heng ar...
the strangest thing was that he is a student, looking for labs to use. Fine, but on a sunday? Where on earth did he get the idea that school is open?
then a couple knocked on my door while i was peeling my prawn just now. Didn't inform me.. *bish* at least i can put some air freshener, tidy my table, etc. lolz. I soon discovered their real purpose...
Notice what's on the screen? Patches of green.
2 pairs of eyes on the greens -.-"wenqun and i gossiped over relationship stuff, what's happening on my side. Teacher agreed with me; there isn't something called an 'ideal' lover. Policeman kinda asked me why i'm so stubborn after so long... it's built into myself i guess. Borrowing the priority-and-options phrase from someone to sum up, i'll say that i'm not treating her as just an option, but also not the highest priority for now. It has to be a mutual thing. Prefer to let things flow slowly.
i can feel my temper getting worse lately (maybe this explains the need for a girl to be with me =x). At cwp, 3 boys reset the selections on the lift controls using the well known trick. I nearly snapped at the 3 of them. Then my hand went forward to press my floor again. Figured out that if i couldn't control myself, i will punch the controls, pull one of them back and yell.
both of them are bad. Teased me on my football knowledge =p
waixin just told me that the one-off online S/U revocation system is available to login. I was thinking; if i got a D for MA1505 i'll seriously consider to un-S/U my grade. But, the grade is worse - F.
MA1505 and ST2334 will be my nemeses in NUS. But i must conquer them in the next 2 (and my last 2) semesters. *sigh*
i can feel my temper getting worse lately (maybe this explains the need for a girl to be with me =x). At cwp, 3 boys reset the selections on the lift controls using the well known trick. I nearly snapped at the 3 of them. Then my hand went forward to press my floor again. Figured out that if i couldn't control myself, i will punch the controls, pull one of them back and yell.
both of them are bad. Teased me on my football knowledge =p
waixin just told me that the one-off online S/U revocation system is available to login. I was thinking; if i got a D for MA1505 i'll seriously consider to un-S/U my grade. But, the grade is worse - F.
MA1505 and ST2334 will be my nemeses in NUS. But i must conquer them in the next 2 (and my last 2) semesters. *sigh*
Saturday, October 27, 2007
catty finding
we have been observing this cat yesterday and today. Apparently it has a liking for cockroaches! O.O
thurs night - getting comfy at the dustpan
he's back! fri night - so fierce sia
Yes, he was running after roaches. Even did somersaults to get this
The thur roach survived, unfortunately fri's did not.
Another corpse nearby
*AHH i'm tired of licking roaches. Back to zzz.*
thurs night - getting comfy at the dustpan
he's back! fri night - so fierce sia
Yes, he was running after roaches. Even did somersaults to get this
The thur roach survived, unfortunately fri's did not.Another corpse nearby
*AHH i'm tired of licking roaches. Back to zzz.*the cleaning guys awarded him with a prawn on thurs night, while he was at the dustpan. However he kicked the prawn away because the shell was not peeled - so proud! The cleaner then deshelled it, and the cat confidently stood up on 2 legs to catch it from the air!
*_*
earlier on i was at simlim with zw, to have korean food. He wanted to look for his mouse, so he killed 2 birds with 1 stone. I'm interested to ask the stall owner about her nationality - she speaks perfect korean, yet perfect chinese too!
Yup this is the one i have been loving for since 2002
960 was jam packed. 2 even complained to driver.
whenever it comes to handling issues concerning her, i can't help being pessimistic. Maybe it's "once bitten, twice shy". Going by this phrase, what will be the third?
sigh.
*_*
earlier on i was at simlim with zw, to have korean food. He wanted to look for his mouse, so he killed 2 birds with 1 stone. I'm interested to ask the stall owner about her nationality - she speaks perfect korean, yet perfect chinese too!
Yup this is the one i have been loving for since 2002
960 was jam packed. 2 even complained to driver.whenever it comes to handling issues concerning her, i can't help being pessimistic. Maybe it's "once bitten, twice shy". Going by this phrase, what will be the third?
sigh.
Saturday, October 20, 2007
hk's new stardom
my kelly's concert went up in smoke! 2 guys actually met earlier and went around arts to search for the ticketing booth. After conquering many flights of staircases (read: NUS = National University of Staircases) and ending up at Central again, we realised one problem after looking at the poster for the 3rd time. The ticket issue was on the 18th, and concert on the 19th at LT27!
2 blur cocks mistook the date!!! One of them is me! =(
nvm, went for lecture. This is the worst lecture i ever sat in, because some inconsiderate peeps were talking loudly as though they own the place. Those darn freshies wake up your idea. *pissed*
CS3265 project discussion was wrapped up just now. Was quite disappointed because i can sense some half hearted-ness in getting the project report done. I can only do so much to straighten out ambiguous statements. I still don't see the point of doing much effort in CS3214, then see the rest of the modules suffer. Isn't it lppl?
actually left earlier to meet the girls for dinner, but due to the bus 95 getting stuck outside NUH i sadly had to tell them to go ahead. Things always go haywire when i want it to be smooth... sigh. Went to simlim to have my favourite korean meal, then HK called me. Went for an unplanned trip to level 4 and 5, then watched him splurge $386 on his new storage case.
Bell was selling Pentium III 600MHz Slot 1 cartridges. Vintage items.
Lethal combo - WD 320GB and 2-bay Firewire/USB storage device
Small, but weighted a ton
One of the drive bay.
The available connectors and drive setup option
2 blur cocks mistook the date!!! One of them is me! =(
nvm, went for lecture. This is the worst lecture i ever sat in, because some inconsiderate peeps were talking loudly as though they own the place. Those darn freshies wake up your idea. *pissed*
CS3265 project discussion was wrapped up just now. Was quite disappointed because i can sense some half hearted-ness in getting the project report done. I can only do so much to straighten out ambiguous statements. I still don't see the point of doing much effort in CS3214, then see the rest of the modules suffer. Isn't it lppl?
actually left earlier to meet the girls for dinner, but due to the bus 95 getting stuck outside NUH i sadly had to tell them to go ahead. Things always go haywire when i want it to be smooth... sigh. Went to simlim to have my favourite korean meal, then HK called me. Went for an unplanned trip to level 4 and 5, then watched him splurge $386 on his new storage case.
Bell was selling Pentium III 600MHz Slot 1 cartridges. Vintage items.
Lethal combo - WD 320GB and 2-bay Firewire/USB storage device
Small, but weighted a ton
One of the drive bay.
The available connectors and drive setup optiontogether with simon we walked through the suntec food court. I was telling kay that i realised myself unconsciously avoiding some places jun and i always frequented in the past, especially the ones we went just before the breakup. Suntec foodcourt, Kuishinbo, Lau Pat Sat, Amoy Street hawker centre, BJ's kino were some of them. I never stepped into Kuishinbo since my last meal with her there. No prizes for guessing why.
maybe i don't want to affect my own recovery or 胡思乱想. So i guess when i'm ready for another relationship, it's when i will find courage to visit these places again, by myself. I'm well on my way, luckily =)
before heading home went over to jac's place to do the 'door trick'. No more donuts for me cos' her father took the remaining 2. Hiakhiak...
maybe i don't want to affect my own recovery or 胡思乱想. So i guess when i'm ready for another relationship, it's when i will find courage to visit these places again, by myself. I'm well on my way, luckily =)
before heading home went over to jac's place to do the 'door trick'. No more donuts for me cos' her father took the remaining 2. Hiakhiak...
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
rumour mill
before starting to say what the rumour is, wenqun and ting pls discuss your travel plans soon! My price wizard Kay is going to finalise bookings this/next week.
done a preliminary price search for hotels (versus my primary choice of hostels), found that it's twice the cost of my hostel for 6 nights. Hmm... undecided. Better to leave the decision to coming weekend where my schedule is less tight.
now the rumour. But i need to clarify; i don't know this couple well. The pair were DBI students, 4 years after my batch. The only time i meet them is to chase them out of the project room after closing hours. And given their motivation to stay back in school, i assume they are hardworking and one of the top few in DBI (yes, they are). After graduation, the girl went to one of the big 3 uni locally (the faculty is the only 1 out of 3 to display student photos), and the guy was conscripted to become a soldier.
just now i happened to chitchat with Gary, and heard that this couple has broke up. It couldn't be, because they were still together months ago. Gary had dinner with them weeks back and witnessed some heartwrenching scenes that i also thought so. You know, the kind of scenes where after a breakup one party will feel the loss, then wishes to regain the loss. The actions shown are therefore above the norm.
there are terrible theories as to why they broke up. Such as the guy outliving his usefulness in that period of her studies, thus the breakup. I hope it's not because of current studies that the girl made the decision. It appears to, according to my intelligence.
it's like neglecting your mum or dad for some other matter, and then crying over their loss when they depart from the world. No matter how hard one can cry, these loved ones simply are gone for good. If they are still alive, that person will lose confidence in you totally. No difference too.
in this case, the poor guy has to contend with getting back a lost love while struggling behind the green fences.
i admire the guy's spirit to press on, however when a person's mind is set, things are unlikely to rewind. Especially for girls.
hope this isn't a trend of "marriage of convenience".
appearing offline in msn is now my favourite. Just now i saw a disturbing personal message. I hope it's not intended for me, because i hate indirect messages, especially from the past year. No point for me to ask because i don't see the need to. Because you still carry that impression of yours.
done a preliminary price search for hotels (versus my primary choice of hostels), found that it's twice the cost of my hostel for 6 nights. Hmm... undecided. Better to leave the decision to coming weekend where my schedule is less tight.
now the rumour. But i need to clarify; i don't know this couple well. The pair were DBI students, 4 years after my batch. The only time i meet them is to chase them out of the project room after closing hours. And given their motivation to stay back in school, i assume they are hardworking and one of the top few in DBI (yes, they are). After graduation, the girl went to one of the big 3 uni locally (the faculty is the only 1 out of 3 to display student photos), and the guy was conscripted to become a soldier.
just now i happened to chitchat with Gary, and heard that this couple has broke up. It couldn't be, because they were still together months ago. Gary had dinner with them weeks back and witnessed some heartwrenching scenes that i also thought so. You know, the kind of scenes where after a breakup one party will feel the loss, then wishes to regain the loss. The actions shown are therefore above the norm.
there are terrible theories as to why they broke up. Such as the guy outliving his usefulness in that period of her studies, thus the breakup. I hope it's not because of current studies that the girl made the decision. It appears to, according to my intelligence.
it's like neglecting your mum or dad for some other matter, and then crying over their loss when they depart from the world. No matter how hard one can cry, these loved ones simply are gone for good. If they are still alive, that person will lose confidence in you totally. No difference too.
in this case, the poor guy has to contend with getting back a lost love while struggling behind the green fences.
i admire the guy's spirit to press on, however when a person's mind is set, things are unlikely to rewind. Especially for girls.
hope this isn't a trend of "marriage of convenience".
appearing offline in msn is now my favourite. Just now i saw a disturbing personal message. I hope it's not intended for me, because i hate indirect messages, especially from the past year. No point for me to ask because i don't see the need to. Because you still carry that impression of yours.
Thursday, September 20, 2007
nyp results out
nyp
by now everyone should have gotten their results - satisfied or think you can do better? My advice is to make your last big dash next semester for graduating classes.
for those who are not going to study after this, it's still important because you won't have a chance to be so carefree again. It's going to be (5days*52weeks - 25days leave/PH) of dull working life, just waiting for the cash to tick in every month. For those who are going to further studies, the amount of effort you put in is just the typical workload for full time university research. No, thinking of playing Maple or Audition? No more chance too, unless you are happy with a pass *hint* =x
based on past trends, many of my poly friends whom swear never to touch books ended up in SIM/MDIS etc. Partially to climb higher up the corporate ladder, to stay employable or simply to look 'better'.
no doubt experience and quick thinking is more important for some sectors such as finance, that piece of laminated paper is not to be dismissed so easily. Employability based on skillsets will be emphasized, more so in an economy downturn. Which should be coming in less than 5 years time.
but then, there is a possibility of banking too much on that piece of paper. You need that paper to look for good jobs, however good jobs may not land on you because of that paper. It's mutually exclusive. And then, there's a cost element to think of. Yes parents can always foot the bill for your education, that car or motorbike you dream of, but i don't believe in depending on parents especially if one is >20 years old. Leave their money alone, since it's for their twilight years.
nus
it's now week 6 of my semester, yet i felt i have been suffering for 12 weeks already. Let me recount my progress. CS3214 has rather intensive. I have packed my locker with maggi, biscuits, tea and sugar. What are missing? Maybe the spoons, forks and a nice cup to hold water. Maybe a sleeping bag and a pair of slippers.
my team members for the CS2250 project are terrific; it will be excellent if we manage to put our inspirations fully into the video. We plan to do our filming next week, so as to rid this project off our schedules asap.
CS3265 is a black horse, because no one has raised questions on how to start the project. 80% of the team makeup are from my CS3214 team though, so i can understand the lag. But no, i won't take up the coordination for this because i'm already doing it for latter module. Someone has to share the load.
GEK1531? I'm blessed with this gem. Furthermore, it was a recommendation from James (Tan), so thanks my friend. Now is to continue with the lectures etc for the 2nd CA. No exams!!!
this semester is special too. Flik is in CS3265 tutorial class, and Victor is in the GEK1531 lecture group. And Joyce from Si Ling plus her friend (oops i don't know how to spell =x) from NYP, in CS2250 tutorial class. ex-NYPians unite!!!
where is my break?
looking forward to the year end vacation. To clear my mind and off to Hong Kong for a break. Good news - wenqun and ting will be joining me there. Planning itinerary wise, i'm only 75% complete. Accommodation? Found them, but no time to book....!
i may insert a solo KL trip 2-3 days before i leave for Hong Kong. I feel the need to be alone for awhile, like the solo Shanghai trip in July 2006. By and large that trip was fulfilling; i achieved what i wanted - to see the buildings that jun didn't allow me to (actually, not her fault since those paid tours are rushy). I covered almost the whole of downtown Shanghai, minus Hongqiao! Looking back, it's hard to believe why i could muster the courage to venture out on my own at that point in time. If you ask me to do it again, i will. But sponsor me =)
fortunately, that burden has been lessened. I find myself more willing to talk about the past, although i still refuse to bring the frame of 32 photos back from my office. To unwrap it is still quite a difficult task for me. Not to mention my mum's reaction when she sees the frame again. She stopped asking about it for some time already, don't want to restart the nag.
v-campus
went down to CPF building on tuesday, to collect the cheque. It was really high; 25 floors up. The view is great! I met Mr and Mrs Lim, and they offered me part time assignments. Thinking in the longer term and considering my results (and the chance of working in NYP is lower because of that), i tentatively agreed. However, not this semester. Mr Lim wanted me to propose my rates, which i honestly couldn't think of any suitable rate. Assuming i'm still doing part time in NYP, this is purely to gain experience in event management. Shouldn't be asking for the sky, right?
let's see whether this will open another career path in the future... although my desire to serve my alma mater is still very strong. Even with a pay cut in view of my poor university results. However if that CAP is what they are going to (solely) look at to judge my abilities, i'm going to knock on other doors.
by now everyone should have gotten their results - satisfied or think you can do better? My advice is to make your last big dash next semester for graduating classes.
for those who are not going to study after this, it's still important because you won't have a chance to be so carefree again. It's going to be (5days*52weeks - 25days leave/PH) of dull working life, just waiting for the cash to tick in every month. For those who are going to further studies, the amount of effort you put in is just the typical workload for full time university research. No, thinking of playing Maple or Audition? No more chance too, unless you are happy with a pass *hint* =x
based on past trends, many of my poly friends whom swear never to touch books ended up in SIM/MDIS etc. Partially to climb higher up the corporate ladder, to stay employable or simply to look 'better'.
no doubt experience and quick thinking is more important for some sectors such as finance, that piece of laminated paper is not to be dismissed so easily. Employability based on skillsets will be emphasized, more so in an economy downturn. Which should be coming in less than 5 years time.
but then, there is a possibility of banking too much on that piece of paper. You need that paper to look for good jobs, however good jobs may not land on you because of that paper. It's mutually exclusive. And then, there's a cost element to think of. Yes parents can always foot the bill for your education, that car or motorbike you dream of, but i don't believe in depending on parents especially if one is >20 years old. Leave their money alone, since it's for their twilight years.
nus
it's now week 6 of my semester, yet i felt i have been suffering for 12 weeks already. Let me recount my progress. CS3214 has rather intensive. I have packed my locker with maggi, biscuits, tea and sugar. What are missing? Maybe the spoons, forks and a nice cup to hold water. Maybe a sleeping bag and a pair of slippers.
my team members for the CS2250 project are terrific; it will be excellent if we manage to put our inspirations fully into the video. We plan to do our filming next week, so as to rid this project off our schedules asap.
CS3265 is a black horse, because no one has raised questions on how to start the project. 80% of the team makeup are from my CS3214 team though, so i can understand the lag. But no, i won't take up the coordination for this because i'm already doing it for latter module. Someone has to share the load.
GEK1531? I'm blessed with this gem. Furthermore, it was a recommendation from James (Tan), so thanks my friend. Now is to continue with the lectures etc for the 2nd CA. No exams!!!
this semester is special too. Flik is in CS3265 tutorial class, and Victor is in the GEK1531 lecture group. And Joyce from Si Ling plus her friend (oops i don't know how to spell =x) from NYP, in CS2250 tutorial class. ex-NYPians unite!!!
where is my break?
looking forward to the year end vacation. To clear my mind and off to Hong Kong for a break. Good news - wenqun and ting will be joining me there. Planning itinerary wise, i'm only 75% complete. Accommodation? Found them, but no time to book....!
i may insert a solo KL trip 2-3 days before i leave for Hong Kong. I feel the need to be alone for awhile, like the solo Shanghai trip in July 2006. By and large that trip was fulfilling; i achieved what i wanted - to see the buildings that jun didn't allow me to (actually, not her fault since those paid tours are rushy). I covered almost the whole of downtown Shanghai, minus Hongqiao! Looking back, it's hard to believe why i could muster the courage to venture out on my own at that point in time. If you ask me to do it again, i will. But sponsor me =)
fortunately, that burden has been lessened. I find myself more willing to talk about the past, although i still refuse to bring the frame of 32 photos back from my office. To unwrap it is still quite a difficult task for me. Not to mention my mum's reaction when she sees the frame again. She stopped asking about it for some time already, don't want to restart the nag.
v-campus
went down to CPF building on tuesday, to collect the cheque. It was really high; 25 floors up. The view is great! I met Mr and Mrs Lim, and they offered me part time assignments. Thinking in the longer term and considering my results (and the chance of working in NYP is lower because of that), i tentatively agreed. However, not this semester. Mr Lim wanted me to propose my rates, which i honestly couldn't think of any suitable rate. Assuming i'm still doing part time in NYP, this is purely to gain experience in event management. Shouldn't be asking for the sky, right?
let's see whether this will open another career path in the future... although my desire to serve my alma mater is still very strong. Even with a pay cut in view of my poor university results. However if that CAP is what they are going to (solely) look at to judge my abilities, i'm going to knock on other doors.
Monday, September 17, 2007
songs by Rainie 杨丞琳
i chanced upon summers83's blog - when i was in sec 3, IRC was darn hot then. I frequented a channel (oops, i forgot what name. took sometime to remember, it's #xiaobaby_paradiz). My nick was ah_boy15. Then she was one of those who were there too, along with Xiaoyun and Zhenlong. We even met up for channel outing then, took a neoprint together as a group.
there were many interesting memories; when i was in sec 4, i was linked to my juniors (Sec 3A) in many ways. That time, i was on very good terms with ZL because his house is opposite mine (same floor too), so i occasionally went over to fix his comp, network etc. I was the head councillor then, so it seemed odd that i fixed a comp for a pai kia. Nah, i'm not those snob. And he isn't bad anyway. We still meet at the kopitiam once in a while.
another link was to XY. I had a crush on her before Kim (i think it's before). Then, we called ourselves mantou. She was xiaomantou, i was damantou. I thought over time spent online, the feelings got stronger. But nothing happened. There were few links to Richmond, Zaiyi, Xianglin, Shirley, even Huiting =p, as these were my able assistants when i helmed Student Council in 1999.
perhaps the most special link was to jun. I remember i was IRCing at the library's loan PC when i first saw her outside the school library. It was almost love at first sight... took me 2 yrs to capture her heart. =)
moving on, i had my O levels and went on to NYP. Furthermore with my relationship, i gradually stopped going IRC. The channel i owned (#wgs) got transferred in the end, since i couldn't commit my time there too.
yes, i have not forgotten moses-san. In fact he is a person whom i will never forget. Because he has helped me and my bro in some areas for almost 10 years. My motivation to do well in poly came from many people - besides jun, he was one of the prime movers. We are still in contact, fortunately. Except he has moved to Casablanca.
i'm still in contact with some people, such as Wenbin (EVG). Alvin Leong the joker too =x
times in IRC... some details are still retained in fragments. Anyway, summers is surprisingly still single. Hope there's a chance to meet again, somewhere, somehow =)
this song was originally heard at her blog. It's soothing to my ears...
缺氧
春天慢慢一点点发芽
快乐开始都有了想像
城市光合作用的模样
幸福开始组装
夜里满园的茉莉花香
月光洒落看不见忧伤
旋转木马前那个广场
爱情开始滋长
想你有时会缺氧
嘴角不自觉上扬
这是不是幸福的现象
胸口微微的发烫
想你有时会缺氧
脸红呼吸不正常
这是不是幸福的症状
不知不觉又缺氧
夜里满园的茉莉花香
月光洒落看不见忧伤
旋转木马前那个广场
爱情开始滋长
想你有时会缺氧
为何呼息不正常
这是不是幸福的症状
不知不觉又缺氧
无法移动的梦想
就算没有人鼓掌 我也不会受伤
不会稀释的信仰
心穿越砖墙 在你的身旁
想你有时会缺氧
嘴角不自觉上扬
这是不是幸福的症状
胸口微微的发烫
为何呼息不正常
不知不觉又缺氧
左边
总是忍不住寂寞掉下眼泪
你才会给安慰
担心短暂的晴天
随时都可能
被阴狸收回
等待有机会最坏也最甜美
我乐观却疲惫
因为太怕失去你
所以连快乐里
都装满伤悲
Chorus:
{你不曾发觉
你总是用右手
牵着我
但是心却跳动在左边
你和我之间的遥远
永远隔着亲切
爱少的可怜
伸出右手想陪着你
向前走
感受你爱我的心跳在左边
那么深深爱你的我
想信你会了解 (你一定看的见)}
总在埋怨过你的冷漠
之后又急着说抱歉
仿佛向疏远的你
乞求一点体贴
都是我不对
结果有可能最美
也最可悲
我做好了准备
也许太自由的你
心里面那个家
谁也不能回
Chorus {}
Bridge:
我一直相信总有一天
你会用左手
牵着我走向明天
未来很遥远
却会实现
心在同一边
就能够听见
你说的那句
我爱你
there were many interesting memories; when i was in sec 4, i was linked to my juniors (Sec 3A) in many ways. That time, i was on very good terms with ZL because his house is opposite mine (same floor too), so i occasionally went over to fix his comp, network etc. I was the head councillor then, so it seemed odd that i fixed a comp for a pai kia. Nah, i'm not those snob. And he isn't bad anyway. We still meet at the kopitiam once in a while.
another link was to XY. I had a crush on her before Kim (i think it's before). Then, we called ourselves mantou. She was xiaomantou, i was damantou. I thought over time spent online, the feelings got stronger. But nothing happened. There were few links to Richmond, Zaiyi, Xianglin, Shirley, even Huiting =p, as these were my able assistants when i helmed Student Council in 1999.
perhaps the most special link was to jun. I remember i was IRCing at the library's loan PC when i first saw her outside the school library. It was almost love at first sight... took me 2 yrs to capture her heart. =)
moving on, i had my O levels and went on to NYP. Furthermore with my relationship, i gradually stopped going IRC. The channel i owned (#wgs) got transferred in the end, since i couldn't commit my time there too.
yes, i have not forgotten moses-san. In fact he is a person whom i will never forget. Because he has helped me and my bro in some areas for almost 10 years. My motivation to do well in poly came from many people - besides jun, he was one of the prime movers. We are still in contact, fortunately. Except he has moved to Casablanca.
i'm still in contact with some people, such as Wenbin (EVG). Alvin Leong the joker too =x
times in IRC... some details are still retained in fragments. Anyway, summers is surprisingly still single. Hope there's a chance to meet again, somewhere, somehow =)
this song was originally heard at her blog. It's soothing to my ears...
缺氧
春天慢慢一点点发芽
快乐开始都有了想像
城市光合作用的模样
幸福开始组装
夜里满园的茉莉花香
月光洒落看不见忧伤
旋转木马前那个广场
爱情开始滋长
想你有时会缺氧
嘴角不自觉上扬
这是不是幸福的现象
胸口微微的发烫
想你有时会缺氧
脸红呼吸不正常
这是不是幸福的症状
不知不觉又缺氧
夜里满园的茉莉花香
月光洒落看不见忧伤
旋转木马前那个广场
爱情开始滋长
想你有时会缺氧
为何呼息不正常
这是不是幸福的症状
不知不觉又缺氧
无法移动的梦想
就算没有人鼓掌 我也不会受伤
不会稀释的信仰
心穿越砖墙 在你的身旁
想你有时会缺氧
嘴角不自觉上扬
这是不是幸福的症状
胸口微微的发烫
为何呼息不正常
不知不觉又缺氧
左边
总是忍不住寂寞掉下眼泪
你才会给安慰
担心短暂的晴天
随时都可能
被阴狸收回
等待有机会最坏也最甜美
我乐观却疲惫
因为太怕失去你
所以连快乐里
都装满伤悲
Chorus:
{你不曾发觉
你总是用右手
牵着我
但是心却跳动在左边
你和我之间的遥远
永远隔着亲切
爱少的可怜
伸出右手想陪着你
向前走
感受你爱我的心跳在左边
那么深深爱你的我
想信你会了解 (你一定看的见)}
总在埋怨过你的冷漠
之后又急着说抱歉
仿佛向疏远的你
乞求一点体贴
都是我不对
结果有可能最美
也最可悲
我做好了准备
也许太自由的你
心里面那个家
谁也不能回
Chorus {}
Bridge:
我一直相信总有一天
你会用左手
牵着我走向明天
未来很遥远
却会实现
心在同一边
就能够听见
你说的那句
我爱你
Monday, September 10, 2007
blog is back to normal - major updates
let's close the chapter on studies (for the next 30 mins of typing this entry) and recap what happened this week.
Insurance
WG informed me about an business practice for his insurance company, that made me disgusted. In a summary, we assume there are 2 agents in that same company serving you, A1 and A2. You purchased policies P1 from A1, and P2 from A2 (both commencement dates less than a year apart). Then you felt that the A1 was not attractive after all, so you killed it. The company will actually penalise A2 for that, although it was supposedly none of his business. This meant that the commissions for P2 are taken away, to some effect.
i'm definitely having 2nd thoughts on buying products from this insurance company, since it stifles the freedom to switch (now i know why agents can spend a whole day persuading a customer to take up or to retain a policy).
Lunch out
the second part of saturday was spent with some poly peeps. They are now so free, and i'm just the opposite. But had a nice time out with them. Vicky seemed to be putting on weight =x
Andrew had this sinful mudpie
i settled for my favourite instead, plus choc fruity fondue
Us
We
Insurance
WG informed me about an business practice for his insurance company, that made me disgusted. In a summary, we assume there are 2 agents in that same company serving you, A1 and A2. You purchased policies P1 from A1, and P2 from A2 (both commencement dates less than a year apart). Then you felt that the A1 was not attractive after all, so you killed it. The company will actually penalise A2 for that, although it was supposedly none of his business. This meant that the commissions for P2 are taken away, to some effect.
i'm definitely having 2nd thoughts on buying products from this insurance company, since it stifles the freedom to switch (now i know why agents can spend a whole day persuading a customer to take up or to retain a policy).
Lunch out
the second part of saturday was spent with some poly peeps. They are now so free, and i'm just the opposite. But had a nice time out with them. Vicky seemed to be putting on weight =x
Andrew had this sinful mudpie
i settled for my favourite instead, plus choc fruity fondue
Us
Webefore i forget, Vicky i need your mobtv's id. *grin*
Jac's iriver is just back. Compugate is no longer doing distributorship for iriver products, quite a waste actually. However if iriver's support really sucked, i have nothing to say too. Already got quite worked up while over the phone with them.
Nice makan after project
then i went back campus to touch up the CS3214 system proposal and slides, and was again at the lab in less than 12 hours. sigh....
Holland V XO Fish Head Bee Hoon - tok kong!!!
Jac's iriver is just back. Compugate is no longer doing distributorship for iriver products, quite a waste actually. However if iriver's support really sucked, i have nothing to say too. Already got quite worked up while over the phone with them.
Nice makan after project
then i went back campus to touch up the CS3214 system proposal and slides, and was again at the lab in less than 12 hours. sigh....
Holland V XO Fish Head Bee Hoon - tok kong!!!steve recommended our pack to this stall at Buona Vista, near the 4D betting outlet. What's so nice about this fish head bee hoon? The XO is really gao-gao. The fish is also very generously cut for us, all in all for just $20 (shared by 4).
do try it if you drive or pass by Buona Vista. It's worth the trip.
New monitor for bro
i spotted a fantastic offer from spinergy in VR-Zone. After some bargaining, i took over his 20inch LCD for $250. It's worthwhile because the panel used in this Viewsonic model is MVA/PVA. The colours are better.
did some cleaning up and reorganised his table. Just in time when he comes back for his week long break on Tue.
Finally i can get rid of all my CRT monitors...anybody want?
there's no heading for this, because i don't want to discuss in great length. During the weekend, we were finally able to get beyond our invisible barriers, and started talking for the first time in more than a year. Although it was naturally not as personal as before, i was happy because i thought such a situation will never happen. Last month, i translated my heavy thoughts by posting up 品冠's songs.
if there's any wish that i hope, i hope we can maintain contact. And both of us will find our happiness, whether or not our paths will meet again. I learnt many lessons and will never make sacrifices i would live to regret, again.
do try it if you drive or pass by Buona Vista. It's worth the trip.
New monitor for bro
i spotted a fantastic offer from spinergy in VR-Zone. After some bargaining, i took over his 20inch LCD for $250. It's worthwhile because the panel used in this Viewsonic model is MVA/PVA. The colours are better.
did some cleaning up and reorganised his table. Just in time when he comes back for his week long break on Tue.
Finally i can get rid of all my CRT monitors...anybody want?there's no heading for this, because i don't want to discuss in great length. During the weekend, we were finally able to get beyond our invisible barriers, and started talking for the first time in more than a year. Although it was naturally not as personal as before, i was happy because i thought such a situation will never happen. Last month, i translated my heavy thoughts by posting up 品冠's songs.
if there's any wish that i hope, i hope we can maintain contact. And both of us will find our happiness, whether or not our paths will meet again. I learnt many lessons and will never make sacrifices i would live to regret, again.
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
ahm07, school
went to collect the AHM racepack on Sat, and oh it wasn't a racepack. It was a plastic pack.
sheesh.
The shirt. So so la.
That's the package - the thin piece of plastic underneath the stuff
reached sch 45 mins earlier than required, was quite a feat! =x spent the time at Science canteen eating my favourite noodles, then creating a Google Group for my project.
the next 2 hrs was on project discussion, and 3 of us went to Arts Deck for lunch. Expecting to see eye candies, but nil! Maybe it was due to the poor location we sat at... just beside the plate collection rack.
met Alvin Pang on the way back to COM1, and it's a coincidence all 3 of us knows him - Zhangwei, Waixin and myself. He has put on weight, and i certainly hope he is getting on fine.
later on the night i made some progress in the itinerary planning - the 6-7 day HK programme is 75% confirmed, the 25% remaining is on New Territories (Sha Tin and Sai Kung) and Southern HK Island (Ocean Park, Aberdeen, Stanley).
i still have 1 day of Macau and 1/2 day Shenzhen to plan too, but i shall do that after my exams.
and this sentence serves to remind myself - send email to Studiostudio to enquire on rates. Keep forgetting.... oh no.
was reading someone's blog when she mentioned about her past. Curious, i really turned back the pages. Like a mirror, the words reminded me the amount of damage i caused to her (another her). The resulting change that was happened next was beyond anybody's control. Like the father told me, she is headstrong that she'd listen to no one, maybe me. But since i lost her then, everything just spun off the control.
i'm finally getting courage to face the cold hard facts. I'm finally willing to move these memories to the back of my head, which is fairer to myself and herself. After all, she is attached for sometime. I'm still finding.... to no avail. ha...
the first visible change is friendster. What's next? Let time decide.
sheesh.
The shirt. So so la.
That's the package - the thin piece of plastic underneath the stuffreached sch 45 mins earlier than required, was quite a feat! =x spent the time at Science canteen eating my favourite noodles, then creating a Google Group for my project.
the next 2 hrs was on project discussion, and 3 of us went to Arts Deck for lunch. Expecting to see eye candies, but nil! Maybe it was due to the poor location we sat at... just beside the plate collection rack.
met Alvin Pang on the way back to COM1, and it's a coincidence all 3 of us knows him - Zhangwei, Waixin and myself. He has put on weight, and i certainly hope he is getting on fine.
later on the night i made some progress in the itinerary planning - the 6-7 day HK programme is 75% confirmed, the 25% remaining is on New Territories (Sha Tin and Sai Kung) and Southern HK Island (Ocean Park, Aberdeen, Stanley).
i still have 1 day of Macau and 1/2 day Shenzhen to plan too, but i shall do that after my exams.
and this sentence serves to remind myself - send email to Studiostudio to enquire on rates. Keep forgetting.... oh no.
was reading someone's blog when she mentioned about her past. Curious, i really turned back the pages. Like a mirror, the words reminded me the amount of damage i caused to her (another her). The resulting change that was happened next was beyond anybody's control. Like the father told me, she is headstrong that she'd listen to no one, maybe me. But since i lost her then, everything just spun off the control.
i'm finally getting courage to face the cold hard facts. I'm finally willing to move these memories to the back of my head, which is fairer to myself and herself. After all, she is attached for sometime. I'm still finding.... to no avail. ha...
the first visible change is friendster. What's next? Let time decide.
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
gentlemen, start your engines
school has been quite usual so far - usual as in i have been the same, being late for everything.
there was the CS3265 (Econs in E-commerce) lecture on Monday, which i was late for 20mins. Then the lecture ended 15mins after that -.-" And no further lectures after.... roarrrr.
and just now, i went down Bugis to deal with somebody - he has probably gotten a good deal because i sold him 4 sticks of 128MB SDRAM and 4 more 20-40GB of hard drives for only $20. But i wanted to sell them off for some time, so considered that a long wish done. Now, because of that deal and lunch at Simlim i was again late for lecture, this time for CS3214.
i undertook the admin matters for this project, and barely 12hrs after the lecture i sent out 3 emails already.
to all project mates who are reading, let's live, eat, shit and watch sunsets and sunrises together for the next 3 months - if we do not get to this extent, then prepare to get C or D for this module of 8 credits!!!!
i'm going to put all my heart matters on hold... so disappointed when she wanted something in her personal message, but it's only for that pair of eyes that she's interested in. Unknown to her, such secret messages are hurting and misleading me. And that bugger, are you blind? Can't you see someone is waiting in the background? At least make yourself clear rather than making someone hanging in mid air for months and years.
there was the CS3265 (Econs in E-commerce) lecture on Monday, which i was late for 20mins. Then the lecture ended 15mins after that -.-" And no further lectures after.... roarrrr.
and just now, i went down Bugis to deal with somebody - he has probably gotten a good deal because i sold him 4 sticks of 128MB SDRAM and 4 more 20-40GB of hard drives for only $20. But i wanted to sell them off for some time, so considered that a long wish done. Now, because of that deal and lunch at Simlim i was again late for lecture, this time for CS3214.
i undertook the admin matters for this project, and barely 12hrs after the lecture i sent out 3 emails already.
to all project mates who are reading, let's live, eat, shit and watch sunsets and sunrises together for the next 3 months - if we do not get to this extent, then prepare to get C or D for this module of 8 credits!!!!
i'm going to put all my heart matters on hold... so disappointed when she wanted something in her personal message, but it's only for that pair of eyes that she's interested in. Unknown to her, such secret messages are hurting and misleading me. And that bugger, are you blind? Can't you see someone is waiting in the background? At least make yourself clear rather than making someone hanging in mid air for months and years.
Sunday, August 12, 2007
aquaria shopping at Qian Hu
went out for lunch with GY and Shuhui, decided on Ichiban at cwp's basement. I had not went there since April last year, and it was refreshing in terms of its sushi offering.
i might be dining more often at Ichiban in future!
Wenqun came over to join us towards the end of the lunch, after which i suggested going to Qian Hu. Thanks bro, he decided to spend some time with us before fetching his girl from PS.
One of the 2 galleries
Much news articles on Qian Hu
The goldfish corner
Qian Hu's prized arowanas (not this tank)
Gouramis! Remember the pearl white kissing fishes?
Oscars - the big eaters
The delicate discus - CD players anyone?
One of the marine tank for sale - $1500!
The nice open air cafe to chill out
So chilling that we need ice cream - i'm down with flu, so lemon tea was enough
New inhabitants for my tank - cardinal tetras and rasboras
i might be dining more often at Ichiban in future!
Wenqun came over to join us towards the end of the lunch, after which i suggested going to Qian Hu. Thanks bro, he decided to spend some time with us before fetching his girl from PS.
One of the 2 galleries
Much news articles on Qian Hu
The goldfish corner
Qian Hu's prized arowanas (not this tank)
Gouramis! Remember the pearl white kissing fishes?
Oscars - the big eaters
The delicate discus - CD players anyone?
One of the marine tank for sale - $1500!
The nice open air cafe to chill out
So chilling that we need ice cream - i'm down with flu, so lemon tea was enough
New inhabitants for my tank - cardinal tetras and rasborasspent a damage of $35 on the fishes, a new fish net, a Eheim cleaning brush for my filter pipes and finally 3 pieces of Eheim Ecco white filter media. The filter media is expensive ($11 for 3).... no choice.
spent another 1 hour cleaning the Eheim filter, and the water flowrate is back to normal!
while in the car, we discussed about 3 people - his[snipped on request], his present, and someone related to his girl. Friend, time to do what's best for you (and her). I'm glad you realised a gem is beside you, treasure her and never forget what we've told you during our kopi!
sacrifices should be solely for your one and only (PS: sometimes, good friends are worth a sacrifice too. hahaha)
and you're right, i'm aware she had a terrible idea of me ever since that breakup - she might be trying to be an empathic friend of her, but i don't owe her any apologies nor explanation since she is an outsider, somebody whom didn't know the situation well until it ended.
i know this is going to burn bridges, but i'm not Mr Nice Guy all the time. And futhermore i'm pretty pissed that her judgement has affected you in another light now.
judge a person for whom he/she is, but make qualified judgements.
spent another 1 hour cleaning the Eheim filter, and the water flowrate is back to normal!
while in the car, we discussed about 3 people - his
sacrifices should be solely for your one and only (PS: sometimes, good friends are worth a sacrifice too. hahaha)
and you're right, i'm aware she had a terrible idea of me ever since that breakup - she might be trying to be an empathic friend of her, but i don't owe her any apologies nor explanation since she is an outsider, somebody whom didn't know the situation well until it ended.
i know this is going to burn bridges, but i'm not Mr Nice Guy all the time. And futhermore i'm pretty pissed that her judgement has affected you in another light now.
judge a person for whom he/she is, but make qualified judgements.
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