vulnerability

it has been a usual weekend as i spent sunday out with YX to get the computer parts. Uncle was sick, however I didn't voice out my concern and left in a hurry. Next, he practically went on a shopping spree and took some money from his own pocket as the cost overshot! We also stopped at Bukit Timah, and met his mum, grandmother and uncle. I actually greeted the grandmother for the first time in many years, and his uncle still remembers me. It was somewhat comforting, yet it came too late.....

As related events unfold, i'm inevitably reminded that a particular day is coming soon... and i feel vulnerable again. i suddenly got very angry while discussing with Alvin over what i saw on Sunday... why? Why did i get so worked up? I cannot help but feel i still blame myself for causing a drastic change a year ago.

time to stop writing for now. cos i simply cannot go on further. My friends... help me.

不是我不明白 这样并不算太坏

懂得爱说来无奈 来自对你亏待

美可以掩埋 没对他坦白 你还在

会进来吗

你在送我回家我还在猜测

那都是真的吗 再见面前

一直想象还有某种关联

但客气是拒绝

新的朋友 不在终点

你的世界 我在对岸

不是我不明白 这样并不算太坏

能再次关怀

时间洗刷所有的不愉快

后来的爱 我们尝试去款待

懂得爱说来无奈 来自对你亏待

美可以掩埋 没对他坦白 你还在

没说分手 终于是能开玩笑的朋友

不是不难过 多少年了

我想过能和你一起老的

却都有别人了

新的朋友 不在终点

我的世界 你在对岸

不是我不明白 这样并不算太坏

能再次关怀

时间洗刷所有的不愉快

后来的爱 我们尝试去款待

懂得爱说来无奈 来自对你亏待

美可以掩埋 没对他坦白 你还在

不是我不明白 说被爱并不应该

我们的关怀 像爱但又说不上爱

没有后来 我们才学会爱

但现在说来感慨 不是那个未来

我们说好的 不会更改的你会在